Forever be my biggest supporter, even while he sleep

Here I am, 4.30 PM in my workplace, uploading this and that, checking here and there out of internet stuffs. Sitting on the chair behind me is my biggest supporter. waiting and sleeping. so tired of work, had to go everywhere, around the city today.

Just there, around me. and everything seems so complete. having you as my supporter feels like I already have the whole world. Thank you, A. I don’t know how to express it. but, I never doubt that I am one of the luckiest woman on earth. and I love you.

[story] Peeping up my back


Sometimes, I think, it was okay to peeping up on the box loaded by the memories I try to lock. And everytime I tried to look back, I found that I am so lucky that I’ve been trough worse and worst events and I am now alive and happy. I’ve got myself upside down just to hold onto my life and love, tried to hold it really hard and hurt myself lots of times. I was begged, I was crawl on the ground, I swallow my pride,nothing is left for me to brag about, thought that I could make it last forever, hope that he’ll finally realize that I am the only one who could love him that much. But then finally I found myself on the desert, being left and alone. found that I fought for nothing. And I was there, alone, in pain. But that was long time ago, before ‘A’ came back and save me. took me out from my worst and hold my hands helped me to stand. and everything has changed since then, my life comes back to it’s path.

It’s okay to look back, to see that God saved me from what I couldn’t handle, that He gave me an angel with his sharp eyes and gorgeous smile, an angel that save me lots lots of times. An angel named M. Arif Rahman.




A year has passed in a blink of eyes. it is a wonderful journey. On our first anniversary,our little A already 2 months old and the day will be just perfect with him around. For us, It’s not just a journey as a married couple, but more like a journey of a decade relationship that keep us together since my Brother introduced me to his close friend at 10 Juli 2005. How do I describe him ??? At the first sight, I thought he is a jerk. But, the weird thing was that I couldn’t put my icy face on him. I always have a hard time when it comes to strangers, I used to be cold and put myself in a distance and ignore their existence. But it doesn’t work on him. as a stranger we kept talk, and teased one another, and we managed to exchange jacket and beanie when we were at Mountain . hahahahhaaaa….. You know hate and attraction are as thin as air. Did I just admit my sin??? that I was attracted to him since the day we met?? oh…crap… yes.. I did. Happy now Mr. A. that I finally tell you that I was attracted to you, no… not before you show me your gentle, care towards me. not before you kept holding my hands even tough the roads no longer up hill. Continue reading

[book] New Books in our Bookshelf

Me and Mr A  had a date on Sunday out of town. Manage to bought couple books and had a lunch together in my favorite fast food restaurant. I can’t forget the taste of beef-cheese Fusili pasta… sooo yummy and creamy,,, And since we out of town we also managed to bought books. To have a husband who share the same interest in reading and collecting books is a gift. Mr. A always said that this is one of out infestation, that’s why I shouldn’t value any of our book with how much Rupiahs we spent on it. I totally agree with him, because I do love the same thing. But the problem lies in me. The weird me always have a hard time to deal with time management everytime I have a new book around. I stuck on my book sooooo much, and every second I swam deeper and completely forgot about anythin -everything- but the world I experience in the book. worst me.

well, there are books that we bought :

the silkworm

Title : The Silkworm

Author : Robert Galbraith (a.k.a JK Rowling)

This is the second book of Cormoran Strike Series. I’d read the first book, and that was a good book. But, I think the second book is more thrilling. Can’t tell you the whole resume yet, because I just finish the half of the book. I always love the mystery case. collecting the evidence and Guessing who the bad guy really is and know the motif of their actions in the end is -somehow- challenging. I love the Detective Conan Series, movie. but I don’t know why, Sherlock Holmes series never really catch my attention. I’d read one years ago, and I wound up sleeping, or yawning when I read it. and never read it ever since. But, I’ll put that(Sherlock Holmes series) in my wish list book.



Title : Storm

Author : Brigid Kemmerer Continue reading

Best Partner, ever.

The conversation we always have every time we’re going out.

I : Kak, do I have to take a bath before we go out??? I don’t feel like it….
A : no, you don’t need to. you never like it anyway.
I : you too. we are just the same…
A & I : hahahahahaaaaaaaaa

*partner… (we know each other soooooooo well)

[story] idling

Been idling for quite a while now. Days move so fast and I couldn’t keep up. I still amazed by all the things that happened lately. February and March were a combo Bless from God. Because I was Married on 28th of February. hahahaaaa…… such a wonderful moment and I can’t tell you how happy I was(am) to be the wife of that wonderful man who always around for the last decade-almost hehe. So, the thing is I’ve been missed all of the Post that I should make to mark the special event in my life, my wedding day is one of them, and my birthday. But, Honestly. Every things came in a row (wedding preparation, move in to a new-rent-house, office things and lots of projects) and still coming for the following month. Continue reading

[quote] A’s Point Of View

‘Don’t you think that we meant to be together??? I always be this kind of person, and you always be that kind of person. we complete each other. we really are meant to be together.’

This kind of things make you stand out more than anybody. this always-be-positive A. 😀

[crochet] Another colorfull Flowers and bag-will-be

This idea came from my students when they asked me to make this kind of flowers crochet. it’s not a new pattern tough, I just made this from the pattern I got from butterfly project, in this project, I skip the ‘fold’ phase and just let it be.

Crochet flowers

Crochet flowers

I did made some bows but forgot to take a picture of that. and the previous bag project that nearly done Continue reading

[event] Tied The Knot

God is around, you know. He hears the prayers, wishes and hope and then then he will give us what we need. I am a girl who believe that God never leave me no matter what. That He, with His power to control everything in this universe, so does my life, will give me the best things in the world in the end. and I believe that miracle happens. One of the miracle He gave me is ‘A’.

He is a friend to tell your story to, a friend to run into when I had a fight with my boy friend, the only man I would call in the middle of war (hahahahaaa),a brother who protect me when I feel so alone and unprotected, a friend with thousand of motivation spirit to lift me up when I was so down, remind me of my parents said that I have to get up on my feet because my parents trust me, and once in a while he will mad at me because I let my guard down and fell for a boy I shouldn’t.

or,when he Continue reading